Nicholas Samuel Markowitz

September 19, 1984 - August 9, 2000

Remembering Nicholas Samuel Markowitz

A gentle soul.

A creative spirit.

A cherished son and brother.

Young Nicholas sitting on a boat wearing a captain's hat.Teenage Nick wearing a backwards derby hat.

Nicholas “Nick” Markowitz was a bright light in the lives of everyone who knew him. Born in West Hills, California, Nick was the kind of person who made the world feel warmer just by being in it. His laughter was contagious, his imagination boundless, and his heart full of kindness.

From an early age, Nick was drawn to the arts. He had a deep love for reading and writing - particularly the works of William Shakespeare, whose timeless stories of love, loss, and humanity spoke to Nick’s thoughtful nature. He was often found with a book in hand or a pen in motion, scribbling ideas for stories, plays, or poems. His love of acting blossomed through school performances and creative play at home, where he transformed everyday moments into scenes of joy and humor.

Music was another one of Nick’s passions. Whether he was listening to his favorite bands or learning to play the piano, music gave him a way to express what words alone could not. But perhaps his greatest talent was making people laugh. Nick had an uncanny ability to lift spirits and bring smiles with his wit, playful energy, and compassionate heart.

More than anything, Nicholas loved his family. He was a devoted son to Susan and Jeff, a protective and loving brother, and a friend who treated others with honesty and respect. His family remembers him as a young man with immense potential - sensitive, intelligent, and full of promise.

Nick’s life was tragically taken from him at just 15 years old, but his memory continues to inspire all who learn about his story. While his time on earth was far too short, the legacy of who he was - a creative, kind, and loving soul - lives on in the hearts of those who knew and loved him.

This website honors Nick not for how he died, but for how he lived - with love, laughter, passion, and creativity. His spirit continues to shine in every act of kindness, every moment of joy, and every effort made to ensure no other family endures such a loss.

About Susan Markowitz

A mother's love.

A survivor's voice.

A fierce protector of her son's memory.

Headshot of a smiling beautiful Susan Markowitz as an adult.Susan Markowitz smiling in a dress holding baby Nicholas on her hip.

Susan Markowitz is, above all else, Nick’s mom. That was her favorite title - and always will be. When Nick was taken from her in 2000, her world shattered. The love she had for her son didn’t disappear - it just had nowhere to go. And so she poured it into a fight for justice, into honoring his memory, and eventually, into helping others walking their own roads of unimaginable loss.

Susan’s love for Nick and her family was - and still is - endless. She was the kind of mom who celebrated every school performance, every goofy moment, every creative spark. She saw the light in Nick - the humor, the sensitivity, the potential. And when that light was stolen, Susan found herself in darkness.

In the years after Nick’s murder, Susan struggled. She faced moments of overwhelming grief and even attempted to take her own life - more than once. But each time, something pulled her back: her husband, her family, her memories of Nick, and a quiet voice that said, “Not yet. There’s more to do.”

And there was. Susan became a warrior for justice - not just for Nick, but for every family who has experienced the kind of pain she knows too well. She co-authored a powerful book called My Stolen Son with Jenna Glatzer, which tells the raw and honest story of what happened and how she survived it. It’s not a true crime story - it’s a love story between a mother and her son.

Susan also worked tirelessly to make sure everyone responsible for Nick’s death was brought to justice. Her years-long pursuit even helped bring Jesse James Hollywood, the man who orchestrated her son’s murder, to trial after he fled the country.

But Susan doesn’t see herself as a hero. She sees herself as a mom who just couldn’t let go. Who still can’t. And who uses her voice now - shaky or strong - to help others feel less alone.

“Nick was my everything. Losing him nearly broke me. But I fight because he deserves to be remembered. He deserves that his story be told. And no other parent should ever have to feel this pain.” -  Susan Markowitz

Susan carries Nick’s spirit with her in everything she does.

This site exists because of her love, her courage, and her refusal to let the world forget her beautiful boy.

My Stolen Son

A mother's story.

A voice for Nick.

A journey through grief.

Headshot of Susan Markowitz used in the book that she co-authored titled My Stolen Son.Cover image of My Stolen Son, the book co-authored by Susan Markowitz, which shows a teenage Nicholas Markowitz with Susan.

Susan Markowitz is the grieving mother whose harrowing real-life tragedy is at the heart of My Stolen Son, co-written with Jenna Glatzer and released on September 7, 2010.

The memoir recounts the kidnapping and murder of her 15 year old son, Nick, in August 2000 - events that would later inspire the 2006 film Alpha Dog.

Through the book, Susan documents not just her son's disappearance and death, but also her enduring nine year crusade to seek justice, encompassing personal struggles such as grief-induced alcoholism and suicide attempts, all told with raw honesty and determination. The narrative sheds light on her resilience and her advocacy for victims of violent crime.

Susan's deeply personal account is characterized by its candid reflection on intense grief, complex family dynamics, and a relentless pursuit of justice. Her journey, both internal and legal, captures the reader with heartbreaking clarity.

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