FOR LIFE
Mourning Nicholas
Talking to him as if he were here
The depression of no reply
Heart palpitations are the norm
Mom's fingers type where he typed
Staring into nothing, a safety mechanism
The depth of this pain is beyond explanation
The really are no words to completely describe
This anxiety of breathing knowing he is not
The feeling of being pushed off the highest mountain
Falling backwards, so not to see
What is waiting? a life sentence, No Parole
2/3/2001
Susan Markowitz
